cassie is a geek

Destined For Geekness

I’m pretty sure I was always going to be a geek.

My mum used to tell me how when I was about 2 or 3, the only way she could get peace and quiet to get anything done around the house was to sit my in my high-chair in front of the TV when Dukes Of Hazzard was on. I mean Dukes Of Hazzard… what 2-3 year old girl gets fascinated by that show?! Also, as I sit here typing it, I have 3 General Lee’s in his room. And the first car I ever bought brand new was orange, in honour of her. And it’s my favourite colour. I have no idea if that’s connected.
I remember getting SO excited about a decade or so ago when I met Catherine Bach. I’m pretty sure I would die if I ever met John Schneider or Tom Wopat.

I then spent a lot of time in the late 80s/early 90s watching a lot of the ‘boys’ stuff. Cartoon-wise it was Ghostbusters, Bucky O’Hare, Defenders Of The Earth and I was totally nuts over Teenage Mutant Hero Turtles – wallpaper, bedding… I read the TMNT, Ghostbusters, Bucky O’Hare comics too. And The Beano.
I also loved to watch like Doctor Who, The A-Team, MacGyver, Magnum PI, Knight Rider, CHiPs. Y’know, the sort of thing all self-respecting 7-8 year old girl would watch. Man I was such a tomboy.

I would ready The Famous Five and The Hardy Boys… and I was doing fanfic and roleplay before I even knew what they were. Playing in the woods, making up and acting out my own stories where I was with them. Or one time where Joe Hardy got hurt so Frank Hardy kissed it better. Yup. I was about 9.

I also used to write stories. I remember one that was about an evil witch who enchanted all the toys to do her bidding, and these two girls who just wanted their dolls back and went on a quest. There was a dragon and… I have no idea what happened but I remember them having cheese and branston pickle sandwiches in their picnic!

As I moved towards teens, I found the horror and sci-fi sections of the library. Stephen King was (still is) a favourite, and there was more than one occasion where a librarian would ring my mum and ask if she was sure I should be checking out these books. Mum was just like ‘it’s a book, let her read it’

At the same time, I was watching Star Trek: The Next Generation on TV. The X-Files started when I was like 13-14. I also discovered re-runs of Jon Pertwee & Tom Baker era Doctor Who, 60s horror movies (hammer house of horror LOVE!), the outer limits, the twilight zone… And that little show, don’t know if you’ve heard of it? Buffy The Vampire Slayer. I know I’ve mentioned before how much the show influenced me and how I grew up with the characters, being the same age as them.
I was writing X-Files fanfiction as well. Proper alien abduction sci-fi stuff. By hand. And getting a teacher to correct it.

A group of my friends and I snuck into the cinema to see Interiew With A Vampire in the mid-90s. It was an 18 and we were maybe 14. But it was vampires, Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt, Christian Slater and Antonio Banderas, what were we supposed to do? We all came out of the cinema in LOVE… and my first stop was the bookshop where I bought the first three of the Vampire Chronicles. And fell even more in love, only with Armand and Daniel *draws sparkly orange hearts*

I loved all the sci-fi films at that time – Stargate, Independence Day, Men In Black, The Mummy. And also Mission Impossible. Again with being a total tomboy!

I got the internet and found online fandom in 1999/2000, and fell head over heels into Savage Garden RPS slash, shortly followed by Star Wars: The Phantom Menace and The Sentinel. I’ve been involved in one fandom or another since then, always reading and writing fanfic and squeeing muchly, sometimes roleplaying.
I started going to sci-fi conventions around the same time.

Sci-fi and horror has always been such a part of my life, and so has fandom. I can’t imagine a world without fangirling! I’ve met some incredible people through fandom, love how fandoms connect and you find new shows and books and movies and music and people in the strangest ways. Pretty much everyoen I know in real life I’ve met… well in a queue for something or other, either at a gig or a convention!

Today finds me starting something new for me. Well.
I’ve not read comics since I was in my early teens and I have in front of my some copies of The Amazing Spiderman, The Uncanny X-Men and The Invincible Iron Man. Actually quite excited to dive in…

5 fandom friday

5 Fandom Friday – Womances

Womances. Can I just say I’m not a fan of that term? And I’ve talked this over with my Dragon this afternoon while pondering and for all that I’m a slasher, I really don’t have very many femmeslash pairings. I’m not sure if that’s a) bad lesbian!, b) I want them for myself or c) a long commentary on the lack of female characters interacting with each other.

But, as I was making thinky noises about the topic, I ended up rambling somewhat at length about the female characters that I completely adore and thought ‘hey, I’ll do my top 5 female characters instead’ because that’s mostly related to the prompt!

Willow_Season_7First things first and we go back in time to Buffy The Vampire Slayer and one of my first major female fictional crushes, Willow Rosenberg

I was the same age as Buffy, Xander and Willow. I grew up with them. A lot of the things they were going through – ok, maybe not the vampires, demons, forces of darkness stuff – but the school and boys and family and friends, I was going through at the same time. And Willow was the first time I saw me on-screen – I was the shy, awkward, non-fashion wearing geek. I loved school. I got interested in Wicca around the same time Willow found magic. We both discovered we liked girls at the same time.

And, let’s face it, Alyson Hannigan isn’t exactly hard on the eyes.

My love for Willow… ♥

900_24Have I mentioned my love for Amanda Tapping recently? *draws even more sparkly orange hearts around the woman* And, while, yes, my introduction to Amanda was as Helen Magnus there is definitely something to be said for Stargate SG1 and Sam Carter.

From the first time we met her, we knew Sam was going to take no shit from anyone, and the more we got to know her… she’s this intelligent, independent woman who’s passionate and dorky. She’s a soldier but she’s also a woman – we see her riding & fixing motorcyles in leather, but also dancing and going shopping, having mani/pedis in floral dresses.

abby-sciutoI’ve often been known to say that NCIS‘s Chief Forensic Scientist Abby Sciuto is my perfect woman, and it really is true!

I love the paradox of her gothic style and her enthusiasm for her work. She’s this incredibly smart, caffeinated, tattooed, bubbly, caring, capable woman. Who loves dogs. And she’s so protective of her team and I love her relationship with Gibbs. She’s so varied as well, the complete opposite of what you would expect based on how she looks… I mean she goes bowling with nuns! A completely rounded, three-dimensional character… it’s almost like she’s a real person. …a paradox wrapped in an oxymoron smothered in contradictions in terms. Sleeps in a coffin. Really, the happiest goth you’ll ever meet as DiNozzo would say

Penelope-Garcia-criminal-minds-35492355-1024-768Sticking to the apparent theme of kick-ass women who solve crime, we have Criminal Minds‘s Technical Analyst Penelope Garcia. Again, somewhere up in the lines of being my perfect woman!

She’s flamboyant and outrageous and fun-loving and optimistic and excitable and provides a bit of often well-needed comic relief. I love her style, her colourfulness and her uniqueness. She’s confident and sexy and not afraid to show her emotions – especially when it comes to the BAU members, and especiallyMorgan. My love for those two is… pretty epic but that’s an entirely different ramble!

dana-scullyLast but by no means least is The X-Files very own FBI Special Agent Dana Scully; a woman who had quite the role in shaping my formative, early teen, years.

I was always really interested in science but of course, that wasn’t ‘cool’. Along comes Scully, an FBI Agent who’s a Dr and has a degree in physics. Suddenly, STEM is… maybe a little less dorky.

She’s intelligent and I always loved how she held on to her sceptism and faith, despite everything she and Mulder encountered, and the way she reconciled her scientific background and her Catholicism. She has this dry wit and a sharp humor and I love her snark. I always loved how she’s never the damsel in distress, but in fact she was often the one rescuing Mulder when he got caught up in something.

Honourable Mentions
Princess Leia (Star Wars)
Felicity Smoak (Arrow)
Maura Isles (Rizzoli & Isles)
Alex Reid (Saving Hope)
Cassandra Cillian (The Librarians)
Parker (Leverage)
Hermione Granger (Harry Potter)

health

Still crazy

I’m pleased to report I’m officially still nuts! 🙂

I had a depression check-up with my GP this morning. He’s very pleased with how I’m reacting to the Propanolo and the Sertraline. We’re sticking with the current cause of treatment for the foreseeable future. We discussed the trouble I’ve been having sleeping and he wants me to start keeping a sleep log, how well I’m sleeping, what’s preying on my mind when I can’t, stress levels and stuff.

Last night I fell asleep on the couch watching Rizzoli & Isles 1×04… so I’ve no idea who killed the ded girl. And I had a lie-in this morning so that was nice. I’ve not been feeling too tired throughout the day and I feel normal levels of tiredness for 8:30 in the evening.

I’m sitting with my legs up, eating Macaroni Cheese that I just cooked and watching last night’s episode of The X Files. Then I’ll go back and rewatch Rizzoli & Isles and find out who the killer was.

Another exciting night in the life of Cassie!