life

A sluggish Sunday

I’m not entirely sure why but whenever I open up the ‘post an entry’ page, I have the strangest urge to start my posts with a David Hewlett style “Hello internets, tis I!” greeting – you’ve seen his vlogs and know what I mean, right?

Let’s see, whats the latest in the Land Of Llama. I did not sleep well last night. Or, at all, really. I went to bed at normal time around 10:30-11:00 or so, gave up and got up around 03:20, was still awake at about 05:30, fell asleep finally just after that and woke up again around 09:00. I’ve been feeling all fuzzy and thick headed all day and yeah my Sunday has been powered by Red Bull.

I spent a lazy morning in bed getting a new layout up here (what do you think of it?), reading blogs and listening to music. I discovered a wonderful playlist on Spotify – yup a 9 hour, 161 song playlist of all 4 seasons worth of soundtrack… What can I say? The show and it’s music has become such a guilty pleasure of mine. I’m about 3/4 of the way through S2 at the moment.
As with all things country music related, I blame Gary Quinn

I tried to take a nap this afternoon but I’m pretty sure it failed. I genuinely don’t know if I fell asleep or not, which was the strangest sensation ever. I felt even fuzzier than I did before I crawled into bed and oh the thumpy head. I dosed it with some caffeine, sugar, chicken pot pie and baked beans then had a lovely soak in a hot bubble bath, reading Poppy Z Brite – Lost Souls and listening to The Life Of Riley.

Now, I’ve taken some painpills and sleeping pills. I’m back on the Nashville playlist. I’m reading a DK Publishing astronomy book called The Planets: The Definitive Visual Guide To Our Solar System. And I’m futzing around on LJ and DW.

How’s your Sunday been?

101 Things In 1001 Days

100 Things That Make Me Happy

As part of my 101 Things In 1001 Days I set out to write a list of 100 Things That Make Me Happy.

It took me something like 2 months to compile the list and I was mindful to try to make sure it wasn’t just fandom related – that it was very well-rounded and covered a variety of things that I enjoy.

If I’m honest, It was actually a lot harder to do than anticipated. I don’t know if that’s just because of how down I’ve been over the last 6 months or so. At the same time, though, writing it and re-reading it has been a pretty good form of therapy. Reminding me of little things that make me smile – and nudging me to go and do some of them.

Anything than involves happiness is never a bad thing, right?

So here is 100 things that make Cassie happy
1. Going to bed and knowing I don’t have an alarm set in the morning
2. Having a hot bath, putting on warm & clean pjs and getting into a freshly made bed with clean bedding
3. Getting a forward-facing window seat with a table on the train to work
4. Getting any seat on the train home from work
5. My Natalie
6. My Dragon
7. Stargate SG1
8. Stargate Atlantis
9. Star Wars
10. TLOR gigs
Continue reading “100 Things That Make Me Happy”

health

You know you’re gonna live thru the rain

I am slowly starting to feel more llama like. I’m still not sleeping right, as is noted by the 1am posting of this update. I got to sleep at 05:00 this morning (or, yesterday morning) and slept through til 10:00 – I’m not feeling as exhausted though. I’m hoping that as I get back my days into a routine, the nights will come too. I’m also pondering just pushing through and doing an all nighter tonight, no naps tomorrow and hopefully crashing tomorrow night. We’ll see, we’ll see.

My mood is definitely improving. I’ve gone a whole day without bursting into floods of tears over absolutely nothing. I even had reason to cry today and I didn’t.

I had to go to the doctors to pick up some paperwork, and as I was driving there and back, Lotte was running hot. Just as I get home, ping! She completely overheats and a big red ‘stop’ light comes on. I have a little flail then call the AA. Seems my baby girl has a coolant leak because there’s a crack in the thermostat housing. The good news, however, is that it’s covered under the warranty from when the thermostat and radiator were replaced a few months ago.

I can’t even find a way to blame Raintown this time… the fact I was listening to their CD is a bit of a push since it lives in the car

And now I have a shiny little VW Polo courtesy/hire car for a couple of days. It’s so small, but omg it’s so new and has all the gadgets and things to play with! It makes me want a new car and then I feel bad because I do really love my Lotte. I’m just frustrated with her a little right now. *sigh*

health

I promise, you can’t hide forever in the empty darkness

Apologies for the lack of updates over the last week. I’ve been a bit unwell. I’ve been signed off work for the last two weeks, spent a couple of days in hospital but I’m doing better now. I’ve struggled with my depression and fatigue since I had the flu last month and just hadn’t been able to pull myself back up. I’ve been tired, utterly exhausted, constantly, only not able to sleep. And because I’ve been so tired, I wasn’t able to cope with the depression.

It turns out that I am pretty damn anemic, which explains a lot. I’m on some lovely iron pills, 200mg, 3x a day for the next two months. Can I just say that my tummy kinda hates me now.
I’ve had my dosage of my antidepressants and my sleeping pills increased. And oh the sleeping pills are working wonderfully… they knocked me out for 14hrs last night and it felt heavenly.

The increased dose of the anti-depressant is definitely working and I’m starting to find balance. Work is arranging for me to start counselling, so that could be interesting.

I’m also pre-diabetic, only just tipped over into the warning so I’ve got an appointment with a diabetes nurse to discuss methods to try to combat it, hopefully try to stop me from developing diabetes in the first place. I sat down and talked with a friend yesterday who is diabetic and learned a LOT from her about carbohydrates so will be putting that into action myself over the coming weeks.

Hopefully things will start to even out in my head and I’ll get back to normal – or what passes for normal around here.

life

The problem with weekends

The only problem, and I use the term loosely, with weekends is that I tend to completely throw my body clock out during them. As I’m typing this, it is 00:07 on Sunday night/Monday morning and I’m awake. I should be fast asleep but nope, not even a little bit sleepy. My alarm is going off at 06:30 so tomorrow I will mostly be zombified!

It’s all my own fault. I didn’t get out of bed til gone 11 this morning. I was awake by about 9:30 but I was having a little battery-powered me time with some wonderful daydreams about a very dominant Sam Carter *grins*

I watched the first couple of episodes of Rizzoli & Isles. It’s one of those shows I’ve been umming and ahhing about watching for a couple of years. I’ve always heard such good reviews but at the same time I love the books so I was torn. I took some advice and pretended the show was separate to the books and you know what? I thoroughly enjoyed what I watched and am more than a little bit in love with Maura Isles already ♥

Other than that, I’ve just been chilling and listening to music/sorting out my itunes. I managed to copy all the music off my ipod so I’ve been sorting through that, ripping CDs and rebuilding my digital music collection. I’ve been using Spotify so much recently that I’ve not been taking care of the music I own. Apparently it’s time to do that. It’ll be a slow process but it’s always fun rediscovering music that I used to love, had forgotten how much I love and am falling in love with all over again.

Also, and completely unrelatd to any of that, my left hip hurts. 😦